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clouds and catalpas


and catalpa blossoms...

When I'm anxious, instead of enjoying nature, I get as uptight about it as about, say, my work (which I'm feeling very uptight about right now...)

Instead of just noticing that the catalpa trees are in bloom and that I can now pick up their pretty blossoms, I think MUST GET OUT AND PICK UP CATALPA BLOSSOMS OR I'LL MISS THE CHANCE--TIME IS FLEETING, DAMMIT, GO GATHER CATALPA BLOSSOMS. How silly is that? It's one thing to think, "must finish that editing job" or even "must write that thank-you note"... but "must gather catalpa blossoms"?! nice way to turn your pleasure into obligation!

Let's see if I can put a poll in here... nope, think it will have to be a separate entry. And someone is waiting for his or her turn on the computer, so that's it for now. Oh, except for suftitom, there's something under the cut--oh well, actually everyone is welcome to look too, it's not secret :-)

I finished Uncle Vanya--I really liked the portrayal of the situation. The doctor being so into saving forests, the general frustration with the situation that Uncle Vanya and the doctor (have since returned the play and promptly forgot names, hence "the doctor") feel. Felt both annoyed and sorry for Helena--annoyed with her for feeling bored, sorry for her for finding herself the object of two men's affections--and just because she's pretty (when really Sonya was much more interesting--and nice!)

I found myself thinking--if only these folks had the Internet, they'd happily be typing away on livejournal and not be lonely and frustrated at all! But seriously... I could feel the stifling-ness of the situation, all of them feeling trapped, without any truly sympathetic soul about.

I didn't know how I felt about the conclusion, though. It's good that the professor and Helena take themselves away--they had really created the problem by being there--but it feels pretty ominous and gives a big sense of resignation that everything just returns to how it was before. I wasn't sure what to make of it.

What do *you* make of it?


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Jun. 21st, 2006 09:07 pm (UTC)
It is ominous except for the hope Sonia puts out there in her famous last speech. How many times people who are destitute and broken, poor and forgotten are told things will be better in the next world, while tons of people of having it good right now (WOW...can you say bitter?) But are things really the way they were before? Can Uncle Vanya have a more peaceful life now. Or will he just be waiting to die for his peaceful after life to come? I'm not sure, either.

I found myself thinking--if only these folks had the Internet, they'd happily be typing away on livejournal and not be lonely and frustrated at all

For Uncle Vanya it wasn't just the loneliness but the realization that the major portion of his life was over and he had little to show for it. Working to make someone else well off. However, Vanya doesn't get off the hook that easily though...after all, he didn't do much to change the situation. But he did what he thought was right basically, and got screwed.
But Sonia speaks for us all who may be feeling like Uncle Vanya...what else can we do, but live?
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Jun. 22nd, 2006 06:53 am (UTC)
**Yay**, I'm so glad :-)
Aren't clouds amazing? I always thought... one day I want to take a whole bunch of pictures of the sky--and now I can do it! I have one more of these on flickr, but it's basically just the same as this one.
Jun. 22nd, 2006 12:00 pm (UTC)
oh so pretty. I do that too, make pleasurable things an anxious situation sometimes.
Jun. 22nd, 2006 12:05 pm (UTC)
OMG! I love catalpa blossoms! Hadn't thought of those in years...you're making me homesick!

Clouds are wonderful, too - at least we're getting a few of those out this way today.

Beautiful pics, thanks for sharing them!
Jun. 22nd, 2006 12:09 pm (UTC)
Love your cloud icon! Glad you're getting some clouds--take pics if you get a chance!
Jun. 22nd, 2006 11:29 pm (UTC)
Is this a joke? Is that cloud icon for real? I could swear I see a bunny rabbit...well ben working a lot...perhaps a rest ;~)
Jun. 22nd, 2006 06:05 pm (UTC)
The cloud photo is GLORIOUS!

I know what you mean about stressing out about destressing...."I must go walk, now, I must.....

Hope you job gets less stressful.
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